walk away

sini la saye... xjauh kan?ke jauh jugak bg awak???

erm ap lg yg boleh saye buat? urmmm

PART 1

kau takkan tinggalkanku
takkan pernah, sayangku
janjimu janjiku untukmu

aku x menyesal.dan xkan pernah menyesal. ak hrp.... ada yg akan bersyukur kehadiran aku...aku juga berharap..akan ada yg menjaga aku di saat aku memerlukan...

mungkin kau sudah bahagia.tidak lagi perlu mengambil hati aku lg kan?xperlu menjaga hati aku kan?dan xperlu dgr lg keluhan dan rungutan aku kan?


kau boleh tersenyum dan aku boleh ketawa...dan jikalau kau bersedih..akan aku menangis...itu lah sifat aku.aku xkn lupakan kau.mungkin senyum itu..tawa itu dan tangisan itu....membawa aku ke mana shj.


ha ha ha ...gelak ku xkan pernah berhenti..


pelik rasanya..
kali ni..telefon aku kurang berbunyi berbanding sebelum ni.... kekok rsnya hp ku menjadi lebih SILENT~ even VIBRATE pun xda....


ha ha ha... knp aku menangis sambil ketawa???


knp aku pegang pd perkara yg aku lepas kan?

knp aku tggu pd perkara yg aku lepas kan?


terdetik juga hati aku utk mdgr kau memuji aku pada teman2 mu...spt mana aku memuji mu pada teman2 ku...

tinggi mana mereka menyanjung kau..lg tggi aku SANJUNG diri kau....

sekalipun mereka aggp aku sehina hina yg mungkin mereka nk aggp.
eh pelik bukan???selalu aku akn bercerita kt kau ap yg berlaku sekeliling aku..
tp knp kalii ni tdak??

erm...ap yg xkena agk nya...oh..aku sedar...
aku yg kehilangn kau.....mimpi aku dah mati....aku br bgnn dari mimpi atau aku masih bermimpi?
mungkin bila aku sedar satu hari nty..hrp2 kau betul2 ada di sebelah aku...yg masih tidur nyenyak di sisi aku spt selalu..
mungkin esk ... mungkin lusa... mungkin.........................................hurm...


tiba2...tiba2 rsny aku trdgr sesuatu...apa agaknya????terngiang2 sesuatu...

oH ..suara mu rupanya...kau sdg bernyanyi..... aku tersengih agk nya mdgr kamu bernyanyi... chomel kan???ha ha ha.... sgguh kau mmg chomel..cr kau bernyanyi...

haaaaa..... ap lg yg kau buat tu?? ouh...kau sdg memegang appo yea...???
bermain nya di hadapan aku..... buat dia jadi cacat yea???

dan.......................................................

empty walls~~

Your empty walls, your empty walls
Pretentious adventures, dismissive apprehension
Don't waste your time on coffins today
When we decline from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning, desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation, choking from intoxication?
Don't you see their bodies burning, desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation, choking from intoxication?

I want you to be left behind those empty walls
Told you to see from behind those empty walls
Those empty walls

When we decline from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning, desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation, choking from intoxication?
Don't you see their bodies burning, desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation, choking from intoxication?

I want you to be left behind those empty walls
Told you to see from behind those empty walls
Want you to be left behind those empty walls
I told you to see from behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls, the walls
From behind those empty walls

(I loved you yesterday)
From behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls, the walls
(Before you killed my family)

siapa aku

KAU BUAT AKU JDI SESUATU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KAU BUAT AKU JADI BINATANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KAU SEKSA AKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KAU BUAT AKU JADI HINA SEHINA HINA NYA!!!!!!!!!!!

knp dunia x memahami..........
knp mereka tdak mendalami...........
knp mereka menjauhi...........
knp tidak memenuhi.........

my suicide

aku hny mampu menoleh ..dan terus berlalu pergi... mungkin aku tidak layak hdup dlm dunia yg serba HEBAT ini.akan aku putar kan balik pada masa lampau aku....
mungkin..... aku dpt mengelak dari di buli.
mungkin ......aku dpt elak kan diri aku dari di sentuh.
mungkin......aku boleh lakukan sesuatu dari dulu lagi.
mungkin.....aku boleh menerima nya dahulu.
mungkin ....juga aku boleh tolak permintaan nya.
ataupun mungkin.....aku boleh terima seglanya.

kalau tiada di buli..aku xkn di kenal kan dgn si dia.mungkin aku xkn kenal erti marah.dendam.ataupun mainan di dunia ni.tp malangnya...aku lalui semua nya itu sekarang.
aku xboleh lari dari segalanya.
sbb is tetap menghantui aku.

berdetik jam di tgn aku tanpa henti umpama aku terkenang kan saat dahulu.
mana kawan?mana sahabat?mana cinta pertama?mana pandangan pertama?dan ciuman pertama?

knp aku sering terbyg kn kenangn??
tp knp kebanyakkanya bnd yg bukan norma.

argh..ap sbrnya kehendak aku.
ap sbnrnya yg aku cari..
ap sbrny dia yg salu mengahntui malam tidur ku.

knp kau kembali!!!
kau buat aku x tidur tenang.kalau dpt ku undurkan masa....
aku tanak ms tu berjalan.
aku hny nak kau pegang tgn aku shj ketika tu.
dan jgn sekali kau lepaskn aku.
meskipun aku menolak kau ketika itu.

aku nk kau hentikan mase tu. dan jgn bg aku membesar.
bnyk perkara yg aku tdak smepat belajar.
aku masih xpuas merasa hdup ke anak anak kan....
aku masih xpuas di bangku sekolah rendah itu...kerusi kayu..papan hitam..dan suasana sekolah...

aku xperlu pikirkan masa.xperlu pikirkan kerja.xperlu pikirkan rumah tangga..xperlu juga ku pikir kan duit.

kalau lah aku tdak menolak kau ketika itu..
mungkin..
aku xkn kehilngn kau kan.

knp msti skrg kau kembali.
kat mana lg perlu aku cr semua tu?
jgn seksa aku lg..
aku xtaw ap yg perlu aku buat.
plss... bg lah aku sesuatu supaya aku dpt cr kau semula.

kau bnyk mengajar aku segalanya dulu..cuma kdg2 aku terpikir..kalau lah kau x mengajar aku smua tu..ap agak nya diri aku skrg nih??

di sebalik tu..
knp aku benci sgt kenangn masa kecil ku?
knp aku menyampah?
ap kah hasil skrg ni adlh hasil dari perbuatan dulu itu...

arghh..tlg jgn seksa aku dgn mimpi2 tu lg...
jg bg is terlintas di pikiran ku lg..
tlg...
hilangkan...

sepi senja ku

"oh tuhan..satukan lah..jiwa yg xsehaluan"

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ape perasaan ni sbnry....
knp dlm diri ni meronta2....ap sbnrnya yg berlaku....knp?

parachute-song 4 dyra

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
Won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold onto me
I'll hold onto you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

sorry AND THIS IS what i feel....

tik tok tik.... when times goes by...
i will never leave u behind..

tik tok tik.... when then moment of truth arrived...
i will never let u felt being betrayed...

tik tok tik...this is the moment that i will show HOW MOST BEAUTIFULL AND STORNG my love are....

becoz....if im hurting ur self..thats mean im killing my self... and when u felt u being left over..
i will hug u stornger than the other days...

lays my hand at ur body..and never let u go to the others...

this poem i write special for my beloved loves one !!!!saidatuladyrabtroslan